But strive first for the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. So do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring worries of its own. Today’s trouble is enough for today.– Matt. 6:33-34
I’ve spent the better part of a month rifling through my possessions, trying to figure out what I need and what I don’t in preparation for my big move to Watertown, MA. The biggest realization that I have made so far is that there is a vast difference between need and want. I knew this prior to now, in theory, but now it feels new as I try to fit my life into two 50lb suitcases.
I worry more about the things that I want, and whether or not I will be able to have them in the future. This comes from not being able to have the simplest things that I’ve wanted in the past. Having been so occupied with the things I want leaves me no room to think about the things that I actually need. This doesn’t apply only to physical things; I’ve struggled with this as far as my emotions are concerned as well, as I think most people have. With that, it’s time to stop worrying about tomorrow and the things that I can neither predict nor control. I will always have things. There are so many things in the world, and my position as a Westerner privileges my access to them (I’ll save a more in depth critique of this point for another post). Even if I get rid of all my possessions today, it’s almost certain that I will have to do it again tomorrow and in years to come.
I’m packing, but I can’t take with me the people that I care for the most. I have to remember what they have taught me and act out the most important lessons. I cannot physically carry love, but I can hold it in my heart and share it whenever I encounter a stranger. I need to make space for these things because these are the things that I need.